I’m exploring my understanding of what “God” is at the moment as I’ve noticed that the word triggers a lot of unhelpful thinking and I want to try and understand why.

My thoughts about “God” make me feel like I want to recoil in shame because I feel as though I’m not good enough as I am right here and now.

I feel like I’m being judged for having an appreciation of God, and also that I’m judged because my way of appreciating God doesn’t align with standardised religion.

I also experience feeling scrutinised within myself, and that I’m a…

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Three years ago, in the early hours of this morning, I lost my mum following a tragic accident. She tripped and fell down the stairs which caused injuries she was unable to recover from.

I’d been with her during the day before it happened. Laughing, joking and spending time with her; not knowing it would be the last time I ever saw her able to that.

The night it happened was a nightmare.

I was fast asleep when I felt my husband, Jamie, wake me up. He told me he’d heard from my sister and that we needed to go…

One experience of being part of the BIPOC LGBTQ+ community.


I have wanted to share this story for some time but felt uncomfortable for putting it out there for fear of embarrassment, and judgement from my friends, family and peers, but I’ve realised recently that my fear of being judged isn’t nearly as important as the truth of my experience being shared.

This desire to share was brought to light after watching a film recommended by my cousin called ‘The Watermelon Woman’ — directed by Cheryl Dunye. …

What is present underneath what you think?

Primary school aged children sitting in a field underneath a coloured parachute.

The creative field of existence.

The thoughts we think, the body we navigate, and the circumstances we live in are all being expressed into this infinite and universal space.

This space (as I understand it) is like a womb for life. An empty space from which, and a platform upon which, all life is expressed and apparent in awareness.

Being made aware of this space has inspired me, in the most fulfilling of ways, to understand the freedom I have in life to take action.

I have no idea what this field is.

I don’t know what it’s made out of, how, or why it…

Seeing these experiences in a new light.

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It’s often the stories that embarrass us most which - in sharing them, liberate us from feelings of shame and unworthiness. Of feeling like we don’t fit in, or that our experiences are too shameful to speak of.

Some embarrassing stories of mine are on the tip of my tongue at the moment, and I’ve found in recent years that this normally happens when it’s time to release them from my heart and mind…

I have fallen from grace more times than I care to remember.

I’ve lost sight of myself, and others in the clouds of stormy thinking and…

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I read a play on words yesterday that turned my understanding of responsibility completely upside down.

The word was written as “response-ability”, and something about seeing it written down in this way blew my mind…

Often, I’ve felt burdened by the idea of responsibility.

Like it encapsulated all of the things I didn’t want to do, but had to do, if I wanted to be a responsible adult. Things like:

Maintaining the housework.
Being financially responsible.
Being emotionally responsible within my relationships.
Holding down a job.
Taking care of my self-care needs. …

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I feel inspired to share my experience of Childhood Sexual Abuse (CSA) in the hope that it is seen and understood by the people who, like me, felt alone in their experience.

I found a great deal of compassion and acceptance for what happened by reading about other peoples experiences — and so I hope that this can, in some way, contribute to the knowledge and experience that has been shared by others.

I may be biased, but I think that CSA is one of the most despicable violations of a childs’ human rights that any adult can commit. With…

World Mental Health Day 2020

It’s World Mental Health Day today and I want to share some of my experience of being sectioned with psychosis and how I got through it.

Mental health difficulties can be challenging, even without having to face social stigma and a lack of understanding about the nature of mental health.

This World Mental Health Day is focused on ‘Mental Health for All’ and I love that tagline. …

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I read the quote I used as the title for this blog posted on Facebook this morning. It filled me with hope as I related it to everything I’ve experienced recently in living through the COVID-19 Pandemic and an uprising in the Black Lives Matters campaign for social justice. It feels like I’ve been living through a storm of sorts. Challenges and obstacles appear to be popping up everywhere, but at the same time, it’s been an invaluable learning curve.

I think that challenges can really force us into a position where we really have to let go of the…

Shaneen Mooney

An explorer of the heart, mind and soul. I love learning about the spiritual nature of life, mental health, and enjoy sharing my understanding of them.

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